Dear Diary,

sounding so young and innocent...=_= anyway,

Dear diary,

today has been a gloomy day, with serious haze attacking the city again which almost causes us to suffocate, and a murderous exam paper which lasted 5 1/2 long hours, not to mention also there's this frenship problem... sigh...what has happened to this peaceful world *looking innocently towards the sky* cough cough~!! haze!!!

diary arr~~ u know wad? i just got released at 7.15 pm from the Pusat Bimbingan Karya a.k.a prison, after got 'imprisoned' for almost 5 hours in a small 'cell' with 18 other 'prisoners'. n do u know wad the ppl there forced us to do? the made us wrote lines~!! in BM too~!!! two different papers! non-stop!!! until my hand was darn numb after that~ ooowh..my poor hand....T_T they were really painful just now. but after eating the delicious dinner prepared by my mum, my hand is full of energy to type this thing again~! izint tat amazing, my dear diary?? *pukes*

my dear diary...today i had a short fight with my classmate. he's one of my best frens btw, n he had dissapointed me alot today, until i had to shout at him X.X wana know wad happened, my dear diary? we were taking our exam papers back today, n this fren of mine got below his expections in one of the subject, so he sat in front of the teacher's desk, looking gloomy. when i asked about his marks, he didnt reply, but his fren told me. he got 85 n above. i was actually feeling happy for him, for he's such an intelligent boy, so i complimented him by saying :" wow, tat's very good oledy." after tat, another guy came n shooed him away as he wana argue for marks with the teacher. so this fren of mine, suddenly got angry n went off. i tried to chat with him after tat, but he ignored me.
feeling weird, i asked his best fren whether he was angrying with me o not. n the answer was yes. me n the guy tat shooed him away. the reason he's angry with us? we mock him. O.o''' so i was like, WTF??? i was praising him!!!
alright, maybe he felt abit down at tat time, so i planned to apologise to him during reccess (even though i'd done nth wrong. see how good i am??) i called his name, he turned around, finding tat it was me hu's calling for him, he quickly turned back again like i was a bad sign or sth. ok, clearly he's still angry with me, very angry. i had totally now idea where the hell did i say wrong just to make him jumpy like tat, really! acting like a primary kid. honestly, i was very hurt at the time where he turned back after knowing tat i was the one callin him. he didnt even giv me the chance to apologise! thn hurt turned into anger. i couldnt stand this kind of ppl, so i shouted at him :" Ok, i just wana say tat i'm sorry, alright? bull shit! how come there's ppl like this!" ...n without knowing...i cried...yes, my dairy, i cried for his childish-ness n selfish-ness. but HEY~ i hold my head up after tat! :) anyway, i think he also got hurt after having me shouted at him. good too, coz i really wish tat wad i shouted to him will somehow make him realise how kid-like his attitude is. 17 yrs old oledy, still wana play this ignoring game.

frens asking me whether m i going to call him up again. well, i'm not doing tat. i know his personality, n it's useless to do sth like tat. waste my money n time only. instead i will still treat him like normal days tomolo. it's his own problem if he still prefers to ignore me n make me his enemy. it's fine with me either way, as i'm numb with this kinda things oledy.

anyway, i just hope he'll change his attitude soon, or else he wont get many frens in the future if he continues to behave like tat.

*sigh*

dear diary,

ppl change, so do i. but i duno if i'm changing into the good side or the bad side. i found i cant fit in perfectly with some of my classmates anymore, not like last time. they tok about boys n bras, i dont; they tok about rumours, about couples, gossiping about other ppl's stuff, i dont. well, i do gossip sumtimes, but not as serious as them, where theirs can actually be a bit nasty n bitchy at times. they're abit childish at times, still playing the i-hate-tat-gal-lets-stop-tokin-to-her game. i feel myself like a very old lady when i mix with them. i like some ppl though, esp helibely n also sum of the ppl from J class, my neighbour (esp faye n mangyik). they r crazy, really crazy in a very funny way, not the childish way. n they r not sensitive with kiddy-issues. in short, they r more open minded. i owez hav fun when being around with them :)

dunolah, my dear diary, i'm just scared tat i'll turn into an anti-social girl, coz really...i'm tired n sumhow sick with all the childish attitudes oledy...oh no..i'm getting old =__=

anyway. lets hav sum good news, shall we? :)

I GOT 73% FOR MY CHEMISTRY~!!! YAY~~~~ I'D IMPROVED!!! :D i actually got 50++ last time..hehe....so, i will improve again to get an A for it! weeee~~

next, I GOT 80/85 FOR MY ENGLISH ESSAY!!!!! yaya~!! n i got 48 over 50 for my section B essay, the creative writing!!! wOot!! never expected i can get so high marks for it, coz really, i didnt hav much time to finish my story so i just sort of hurried tru at the ending part, aaah~~ n i thought i'd screwd up my essay~!! ha~!! teacher even wrote comments like "excellent." ( i only found this word on my paper after reading 5 of my frens' paper hu got the same 80 marks as me :p) thn "varied vocabulary" ( for me, they r not enuf, i wana learn more!!!!) "Paragraphs are well planned" (well planned? i was actually rushing tru the whole essay!) n "the interest of the readrer is sustained troughout" (really? good :P) btw, i wrote a story entitled "An Act of Kindness".

so diary, i think i'll stop here at the moment. wana catch sum TV :p

oh ya, dont let anyone touch u ok? (which also means the same as dont tell anyone about wad i wrote after reading it, it's my blog= my diary)