why is it so hard everytime?
why can't we just be like them?
i'm too naive and i'm mad at myself.
i'm useless, an idiot for hoping for an easy life.
i feel like i'm a leech, sucking off my sis's money.
a forced leech. i want to let go, so much.
i might as well just leave the house, leave the place and live on my own, so i wouldnt bother anyone. i wou;dnt be a burden to them.
and right now i don't know who to turn to. i tried to bottle it up but the feeling is unpleasant.
i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
i try my best to learn. but i still feel disappointed at myself.