blue mode

in the morning i was still a happy bunny, but it seemed like everything went so wrong in the afternoon.
at first my Graphic Team of Sidang Redaksi was happily switching on the PCs in the com lab n intalling the Adobe softwares into them, but thn after like 30 minutes, a teacher came in n told us to leave, saying tat she needed the lab for her EST class. wad the? however, sumhow we managed to stay n used just only two PCs for our stuff, while the rest of the PCs were used by the form 4's to 'search for the info'. yea, as if! they were all signing in Friendster or checking their mails or chatting or reading 'How to Kiss a Girl' or Malay girls even went gaga over David Beckham's pic. wtf. HEY! GIV BAC ALL THE PCs LAH!!! > . <

thn the typists came, 2 at first, thn after 1 hour + another 2 came. they were adriana, pei ling, sze san, n chai tying.(we hav to finish typing the form 5 n upper six class profile into the layout by this week) alas, they didnt know how to use the adobe, so me n piaw had to teach them. Alas again, the PCs seemed a bit too crappy for our tasks, sum even had problem opening n saving the file, until my frens had to retype again. besides, they didnt typed according to the class. they sort...type the class profile unsystematicaly, until all of us were so confused. situation worsen after piaw went home, d only super geek among us, so only left me there to guide the others. gosh...i was running from PC to PC n need to do 3 diff task at the same time. i wasnt prepared for this to happen. @.@ in the end, i had no choice but to call a halt on all those stuff, n replanned our 'strategy'. jobs were divided equally, i had reorganized all the files, tat means only the needed one will be brought n used, n tomolo they r going to retype evrything from the start. we'll do it step by step. n to all my frens, i'm really sorry for all the trouble today.

*sigh* being a leader is always tough. i always wanted to complete my task in the best way, show the best performance. but if i failed to do so, i'll get really upset. i aint gud enuf..is owez wad appears in my mind everytime this happens. just like today. i was so tired, very very tired. but thnx to XX. his soothing voice had made my blurry mind seemed a lot clearer n yea, i sud relax abit sumtimes. things will turn out fine eventually :)

but thn i just recieved another bad news...mama's worried. i'm worried too.

i need fresh air

owh, how i wish life was so much simpler.

SPM is just 'around the corner', i must drift myself through it skillfully. no tricks, no cheats, just skills.